I started looking for a new job at the end of 2024. I spent the whole of 2025 doing it along with my main full-time job. And by the end of February 2026, I really had enough.

In my opinion, some of the most disgusting people are real estate agents. After this wonderful job-searching quest, I believe that the hiring and human resources managers can actually compete with them. Pseudo-intellectual absolute pieces of shit. Mostly. As with real estate agents, you can actually meet a nice HR. But there's going to be only a 1 in a million chance. I met 2 nice real estate agents and 1 nice HR in my life. And nobody forces them to be such assholes. They just choose to be like this. They like and enjoy it. And because of this, I just don't have any kind of empathy towards them. To all HRs, fuck you.

Anyway. This whole thing really exhausted me. In addition to the panic attacks I had earlier, I started to see all the job-related things as purely hostile. There's a behaviour called learned helplessness. That's how I started approaching the job interviews. The moment I had an intro call scheduled, I simply knew it was going to fail. What's the point of doing something if you simply don't believe it's going to work out? I decided to stop.

Now I'm focusing on my own shit. And at this point, I've already finished the basic authentication logic. Not from scratch, I used an open-source package. But, wow. It's so easy to use. I spent only a week implementing all the calls and settling on the DB schemas.

I wish myself luck on this much nicer journey. Now I can learn stuff and move forward. It's scary, but it actually depends on me now how I handle this. ✊️